Reaching the crossroad all out of breath I jerk to a halt

Looking left right left right…….. Oh goodness! Which way?

The left seems to be a better option. All logics scream that! Seems to have much less hurdles from where I stand now. Definitely a road more travelled by the looks of the path trampled. Glamorous flowers in the foyer and kind welcome notes. The porter is dressed smartly with an expensive suite and very professional. He speaks fluently and makes me feel very important and welcome.

As I reach out to take the porters hand something urgent inside me stops me. What should I do?

I pray and pray. Lord, please confirm what should I do? Which way? Last week I could hear you so clearly and experienced so many miracles. Where are you Lord? Where have you been the last two days? I pray relentlessly and eagerly await your confirmation and answer. Why don’t you answer?

Left, right, left ………………………………. Oh goodness!

The right just seems to be so different. The porter looks like a nerd. He is dressed with plain jeans and slacks. No fancy formal wear. He’s not so professional. I struggle to understand him as he stutters. It starts with an uphill, sand and rocks! You will have to be fit to go right! As I glance left I notice his humble gentle eyes.

Then I remember that Moses had a stutter!

Remember the land of your ancestors! Deut 25 flashes to me? What does that mean? I took you from activity to the Promised Land. Not once did you go hungry, your shoes and clothes lasted all the years! Will you follow me?

I feel alone and confused not able to hear my Masters voice.

Right, I am going right no matter what. I default to the right! Then there it is, I seem to hear angle’s singing. Or are they screaming for me to stop?

I have made the decision. I am going right to the path less travelled. I will face the dust, rocks and hills. I will trample on lion and cobra’s just as the Lord promised.

Just then I realised this was I test once again. He needed me to choose on my own. He needed me cling what is right. He needed to know that even in the desert I will default back to what I was taught by my Master. I was tempted and He wanted me to choose.

I love you Lord! I choose you.

Even now facing future criticism for my choice, I know I choose well!

May Your will be done Father! All honor to you.


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In the middle of the night

a scent awakens me

What could it be? Like a spring garden after the first rain………. fresh, earth, truth, trust

“Trust me beloved. I want to anoint you with oil of joy

you have been faithful, I delight in you

Trust me beloved, fall into my arms, do not fret or fear

I am gentle. I am your Lord”

Sometimes when we expect it the least the Lord appears like a perfume, you can smell it, but cannot see it

You know it is there, but it is not visible.


The Lord loves even the damaged flasks, keep believing, He loves you and hears you, more than you will ever know

He is delighted in your beauty

with love Lilies and Lace

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Pottery or plastic

Pottery or plastic.

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Pottery or plastic

…………., but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure.

This makes it clear that our great power is from God

, not from ourselves… 2 Corinthians 4:7

…………..I am in trouble – help

What do you have in the house?

…………….nothing at all, except a flask of olive oil” she replied…..

…….”borrow as many empty jars as you can from your friends and neighbours.

Then go into your house with your sons and shut the door behind you.

Pour olive oil from your flask into the jars, setting each one aside when it is filled”

So she did as she was told. Her sons kept bringing jars to her, and she filled one after another.

Soon every container was full to the brim!

“Bring me another jar,’ she said to one of her sons.

“There aren’t any more!” he told her. And then the olive oil stopped flowing.  2 Kings 4:1-7

Modern human society has become master of self self-sufficiency and production of products with scientific intracity.

We make plastic stuff in every imaginable colour, style, form and use….

We figure it out. We make it. We fix it. We buy it. We , we, we

And at some stage you get to the point where something is unfixable by human means

Children die and it cannot be reversed by any human

Why not?

Or maybe that would be the fragile clay jar? Once it hits the floor and shatters into pieces it is impossible to put it back together again, as it were, able to not leak a drop of oil.

Then we realise we are but mere fools searching an foreign land for wisdom whispering in the wind

When Elisha told the lady to get jars – he did not say get 1 or 3 or 8. He said as many as you can. How often do we put a limit on the amount God would like to bless us with?

And we think we have nothing left – but then He use the little of what we do have and multiply it beyond our expectation.

I seem to wonder if the lady really would have fully depended upon God if she was not in such dire need? Then I suppose one could argue the fact if is was or was not an miracle.

We all face adversity and we all try to fix it ourselves and prevent it and avoid it. We would all love to control most of what happens in our lives. Though it just does not work that way.

What I did come to realise once more is that when you sit very still at the feet of Jesus and keep quite and seek His presence, He takes control of the uncontrollable.

He protect that fragile clay jar. He fills the jar to the brim. His blessings is beyond anything we could imagine and we must not limit it. We must love without limits. Trust without limits. Forgive without limits. Believe without limits. Hope without limits.

He wants to bless you. He has great plans for you. Sit still and listen and seek His will.

“Whatever is good and perfect comes down to us from God our Father, who created all the lights in the heavens……. James 1:17

May God Bless you and keep you and may you accept His blessings

With love

Lilies and Lace

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Rings and things all in vain

“where has your lover gone’

   O, woman of rear beauty?

       Which way did he turn

               so we can help you find him?” Songs 6:1

Walking to the post office I somehow seem to notice more and more women with sad expressions and heaviness in their souls

Real beauties – real stunner’s – but heaviness in their eyes and mouths drooping. Perfectly styled with stylish clothing. Decorated with jewellery – almost reminding me off a Christmas tree a month after Christmas – the tree has died but still stands there in the corner of your house beautifully decorated and lights

forgotten to be taken down and thrown out for fire wood

a dead tree but with lively plastic coloured decorations?

Then she lights up her cigarette and stands puffing quickly before returning to her office to finish more work to earn more money to buy more stuff to make her happy.

Sitting on the stoep of the bar. Just to relax a bit.

It reminds me of my live before I gave it away. Wow! Was that a life!? Party, fun, cigarettes, drinks, laughter, night lights, turning down, darkening of night, empty spaces, between friends, searching, boredom, emptiness growing inside, shock, realisation, I am empty, broken, broken down, dead, born, life, love, peace, joy, abundance, redemption, beauty a cup over flowing!!

O! beautiful lady on the corner of the street looking so dead! Look inside yourself. If your were made by God and in His image………? If He is your father you have inherited from Him……… Just as our children inherit some of our looks and talents or personalities so do we inherit from Him when we are born from Him.

Do you not see that He delights in your beauty! He wants to be your night in shining armour on the white stallion to rescue you. He rides though the deserted woods calling your name. He keeps calling! My love where are you?

Will you answer?

When He cleans you you and cleansed indeed. All that death, dull, dark demons pestering you can be chased away by the Light – He loves you even when you are still not white as snow.

He calls you his daughter, making you an princess…………. allow yourself to accept the gift…………. what do you have to loose????? Death? Would that be an lost?

I sometimes think back on my wilderness days. Sometimes I giggle at the stupidity. Sometimes they make me sad. Sometimes I am embarrassed. But most of all, I am glad. I am glad they are in past and I now know my Love! My Redeemer as shown me the Truth and made me a stranger to this world, but somehow life in abundance.

He loves you!  Jesus in the most high

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Wind + rain = storm

Outside the storm has just began. Here at the foot of Helderberg mountain in Stellenbosch these storms has a familiar pattern every time. It starts with very strong winds. Sometimes the winds are so strong that you cannot even force the door open. The wind once knocked my little two year old over. She was quite upset by it and then turned around to give the wind a piece of her mind. As if….

Then the rain starts to fall. It is a combination of rain and wind. The rain gets blown against the window and even taking shelter under the stoep does not help. It is a combination of gushing wind and water. Sometimes the gushing lasts longer than other times.

Later the wind subsides and rain gently covers the earth. All noise and fear disappears as the rain caress the earth feeding it live giving water.

Without these wet storms the earth would dry out and a desert would replace this once green slopes and vineyards.

Some 10 years back when we just moved into this very antique house I would get very anxious when these vicious storms started. I would lie awake and listen to the wind hoping the house would stand firm. Wandering when the house will collapse on us and what I would do if the house would start falling in on us. The roof was ripped off once and I remember thinking I knew this would happen sooner or later.

It got me thinking….Life is very much the same. We all have storms in our lives and sooner or later our roofs are all ripped off. Some of us wait out the storm and fix the roof as soon as  it is clear. Some of us try and mend the roof in the middle of the storm almost losing out lives in the contest of staying on top of the roof while the wind is gushing. Some of us never fix the roof and live with the gaping hole always getting wet when the next storm arrives.

And then there are eagles. The eagles who are not frightened by the storms. The eagles who look at the storm as an opportunity. Spreading their wings and mounting the wind. Soaring high above the storm with clear sights of what is happening below. Those eagles that reverently wait on the Lord, that mount up with wings like eagles, who run and not get weary, that walk and not faint! How do they do it? (See Isaiah 40:31 “But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint’)

Have you ever seen the way a 2 years old hides behind her mom’s dress when she’s not sure of what’s happening. Or she is shy or there is danger. She quickly finds her mom and duck behind her. And oh goodness, if she wears a skirt the little one would go and far as hiding under the skirt! Trust me, I know from experience. (Big reason for embarrassing moments. )

In Ps 91 the Lord tell us to take shelter under his wings. Verse 4….

“He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection”

Is that not much the same as what the little girl does?

Should we not see that there is a storm coming and run and take cover under the wings of our Lord? Should we not be under the wings 24/7?

Then why do we run around outside in the storm only to get blown over by the strong winds and think that giving the wind a piece of our mind would do the trick? And time and time again I find myself skipping outside in wind, thinking that this time I will be able to stay standing. And when I do get blown over I have the cheek to get upset for getting hurt.

At this moment I am sitting in that little boat on the water. The storm is gushing and the water level rising. All probabilities shows that this little boat will be sinking in the next hour or two. And yes, you have guessed it well, I am only human, I am screaming my lungs out “Lord Lord, wake up, my boat is sinking!” My guess from past experience is the Lord will arrive with some miraculous resolution to my problem right at 99.999 and He will be all cool, calm and collected. I would looking like Gruhella De Ville. My nice hair style blown to pieces and soaking wet. The moral of the story, don’t wear cotton when going to sea and check the weather forecast… sorry, bad joke.

Moral of the story I would think is to stay under that wings of the Lord 24/7! At the end part of that verse 4 it says “His faithful promises are your armor and protection”

When wind starts blowing focus on the promises. The devil see the wind does not bug you it will go over into the gushing storm. Wind, rain, hale, snow the whole 9 yards. Focus on the promises and shield yourself with faith and use your sword, the word of God. (Ephesians 6:14-18) Know the truth. The Lord your God will never, but never leave you. He will not forsake. He is the same today and tomorrow. He loves you so dearly that he gave His only son to save you. God will redeem those faithful servants. He will protect those who find the shelter in His presence.

Take courage my dear friend. You are not alone. There are many of us whom are facing great battles as well. And if you have found yourself out from under the wings, quickly return to the Lord,  Zechariah 9:11-12 ” Because of the covenant I made with you, sealed with blood, I will free your prisoners from dearth in a waterless dungeon. Come back to the place of safety, all you prisoners who still have hope! I promise this very day that I will replay two blessings for each of your troubles”

The winds will come. The gushing will come. The rain will soak the earth. And then the sunshine will be at the end of the storm again. The Lord will send soothing rain to heal your wounds and redeem you and your salvation will come like the dawn……..

Zechariah 10:1 “Ask the Lord for rain in the spring, for he makes the storm clouds. And he will send showers of rain so every field becomes a lush pasture”

I will keep you in my heart and in my prayers

With love

Lilies and Lace

Ps. I promise to give a follow up whether the boat sank or stayed afloat.  😀

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Moving shadows

“We are merely moving shadows,

and all our busy rushing ends in nothing…….” Ps 39:6

We always think that when I get this or that then I will do this or that. When I get my bonus I will take you to the seaside. When I get my new car I will ….. When I get the promotion I will……….. When when when…… When will you sit still and realise that when is now and now could be yesterday and yesterday could be forgotten very easily, as could you.

We heap up stuff thinking is will bring joy, happiness, status… whatever we desire. Then why does this sheep standing in the field seem more peaceful then us? Why do bird sing every day when they have nothing but a nest build of clay or grass?

The next generation will spend our money we worked for so hard and what would they remember of us? That we left them a lot of money? Or maybe that she loved me and liked spending time with me?

Our lives could be cut short and any given moment and still we hurry around to gather crap. We harbour grudges thinking it gives us power when all it does is steal your joy. We aim to gain status and forget those closest to us.

When last did you lie on the grass with a loved one staring at the clouds casting moving shadows?

That is the times you will be remembered by. That is your legacy you could leave to a loved. Moment given to loved ones.

The only asset you have is time. It is your choice how to spend it, as it will run out at some time.

A few days back a dear friends little boy was hit by an car. Luckily he had no serious injuries. Though it did remind me fleeting our lives are. We are all just a moving shadow. We are all here today and maybe gone tomorrow.

Again I realised how precious time is with loved ones and little it actually matters to gather earthly possessions. How important it is to make sure your loved ones love Christ and you will meet again in heaven.


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